we not naughty is so T_____________T omg i haven’t cried so much in the cinema since i-cant-remember-what-show. especially the scene where the teacher (omg chenxiaodong’s quite cute) was stopping the 2 boys from splashing paint, and then joshua and shawn cried on the bus and i’m like T________________T too. so glad i went to watch with a bunch of people i’m comfortable crying with, even though we aren’t even that close but it’s just comfortable so yeah.

all the joshua ang and shawn lee love is back. so much love for them <3

126.

4 years ago.

<3

and well yes, i’m back home. DONT JUDGE. you can’t believe how happy i was when my parents said that they’ll come fetch me home from school. it feels SO GOOD to be home. has all along been a family person.

bef impre meeting i was trying to get a short nap t get rid of that headache and i got a shock when i suddenly found myself tearing -.- it felt damn bad being so empty inside. too big a difference compared to the previous two days, but i’ll handle it soon. just need to get used to it. and i will.

3rd day of cny and i’ve got to stay over in hall and i really don’t like that feeling. too big a contrast from the past few days >.< i feel so empty inside i can cry. maybe. i’ll end up running home after impre meeting today though it’ll be a stupid thing to do but i really can’t take it :/ sucks.

CNY (:

CNY has always been my favourite time of the year. because of the favourite cousins. well yes, everyone knows i love 6bang, 56 etc., but only the closest people will know how much my cousins mean to me. <3 love time spent with them. i really don’t mind school starting but i’d really appreciate more cousin time.

cny used to be really really crowded at ahma’s house/waigong’s house and there used to be many different places to visit. but as the years pass i realize the number of people appearing’s like decreasing and the number of places to visit too. because of many reasons. but it’s just quite sad to see that happening. ’cause it means people are leaving you one by one, even though i probably don’t know more than half the people but still.

come to think of it, i started fangirling after all the cousins became busy and drifted apart. and probably i refuse to stop because i don’t want to feel that emptiness again so yes.

i really like the cny mood. cny >>> christmas. idk cny is just so family-ish. (: when you get to meet all your cousins whom you haven’t seen in a long time. steamboats are wonderful too. it’s not so much about the food. it’s the people. and so i’m quite looking forward to steamboat with the bballers too! (:

hahahaha it’s always exciting when your idol replies you. nope, 4bang didn’t reply me or anything. well yeah they replied me before but nahhh it ain’t them.

lol it’s so malu-ish hahahaha.

so basically i was watching the trailer of we not naughty, and going like “OMG WHY JOSHUA SO CUTE” ahahahahahaha. well yes, i’ve always been a joshua>shawn person but i still like shawn too lol. i mean, it’s so interesting watching them from kids grow up (and i grow up too lol!) and so nice seeing them being so grown-up adultish now (: idc if everyone else says it’s not worth the money or whatever, i just want to watch joshua and shawn on big screen. then i watched videos from their press con and stuff. then i was like hmmmm….

omgggg malu much but so exciting. and poor boyy i hope his leg is okay! ): meniscus quite serious ehh. )): now i feel bad. bleahhh.

anwwwww. watched bit of sesame player and i’m beginning to like woohyun. but nooooo no time to go into another fandom. but woohyun is so cute omg. but like ahhh no i can’t go into another fandom. not when i haven’t settled my ~fangirl issue~ i have now with 4bang tsk. but i’m STILL hoping things will be fine. reallyyy 4bang yeah? lol my ma totally predicts that i’ll be so stressed up over 4bang.

i still can’t believe my breadboard smoked during lab today omg. my lab partner was like “ehhhh it’s burning” and i was like “have meh?” then i smelled the burning smell LOL. and the process repeated alot of times cause i just switched on and off the switch w/o changing the circuit ooops. hehhhh. but okay managed to troubleshoot after that so yupp. and then i have to do lab report. life sucks like that but i’ll survive. yes i will. ://

ok back to sesame player! or start on lab report. see how. but i have things to do :S

fangirl problems. other people may think it’s stupid but it affects me damn alot.

yes i really love 4bang and probably all my friends know that already. but njbball is one of my favourite group of pple and yes idw to ps them. dilemma much. i just hope 4bang puts their a/s in the morning or early afternoon if not imma gonna cry. really cry. and yes i’ll just sit there and sob.

but truth is i was really touched when mar replied that tweet. like really. i was like omg. and then i stoned for awhile. <3 and then when hilda pm-ed me on fb after all my status updates i also stunned. i don’t talk to her THAT much but like the message she sent was so omg. idk. and then when xiaoyi asked me just now i was like “whoa you secretly stalk me uh” lol.

<3

and to whoever is judging me for being so damn affected by this piece of news, stop judging. you obviously do not understand how much they mean to me; you obviously do not know how much i need to recharge and how easily this can be done just by going to see them. so just stfu and if you’re not happy with it, deal with it.

不要在一件别扭的事上纠缠太久。纠缠久了，你会烦，会痛，会厌，会累，会神伤，会心碎。实际上，到最后，你不是跟事过不去，而是跟自己过不去。无论多别扭，你都要学会抽身而退.

 

不要去欺骗别人，因为你能骗到的人，都是相信你的人。

love reading these quotes on weibo (:

很多事情不是自己想要就能得到.

也有很多事情是要看自己有多想要.

很難抉擇. 明明就很想, 不過卻有太多的顧慮.

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